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#159 The Saltwater Room [Dec. 2nd, 2009|11:55 pm]
[Current Music |Owl City - Fireflies]

Tumblr link being added to list of links above (:

Media Law and Ethics test tomorrow. Tomorrow is in 19minutes time, and I'm like not prepared. I just read through. I know and understand the stuff, but terminology has always been a bitch to me.

Last sem I insisted I had some sort of allergy to paper that caused me to fall asleep on contact with it; paper, specifically of the notes species. This sem, I shall insist that I have a sort of allergy to stress. Meaning, stress me and I WILL sleep. I think I may be right this time, though. Hoho.

I just wanted to post this because it made me shake my head with a grin on my face, not a good smile though. Haha. It's one of those epic-fail things, but I have to say THUMBS UP FOR GOOD NATURED-NESS AND FUN-LOVINGNESS. Not to mention the great attempt at dance moves, gangsta lingo and squishingmanysyllablesinatonce. HAHA.

Thank you, Ms. Lum, for sharing :p



Yes, yes, y'all.....

Heehee.

I love how even through the stress and the madness we still find the time for each other. I know others can do it too, but we never seem to lose the speciality of it all. Even when we're rushing through a meal to go home to do projects or rush off to class, we still find the time to snatch chili packets from each other because I like to help you open them, but you just like to race me. It's little things like that that remind me just how wonderful all this is (: Every detail counts. With projects and tests, things get a bit tense, and maybe I don't say or show it often enough, but you know that I love you, Bee (: <3
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#158 Just put your hands on me [Nov. 30th, 2009|11:47 pm]


Posted this on my Tumblr, but it deserves a re-post here too (:
ROAR to you, Bee (:
<3.

Omgg, school's really kicking in now. Full force. Although I just found out recently that DMC has no MSTs this term (insert happydance here), I'm still bummed about CAs. I'd rather the projects as compared to the tests, really. I'm running on almost-empty already. Just two more weeks and life will be good.

Thank goodness for friends and family. And obviously I am ever so grateful that the bestest ever is in my class and project groups (: Heee.

I've been having awesome fun with my bitches in school (omg Char, totally your fault HAHA; get well soon!), like p**king hell man HAHAHA, B2. Okay that's quite heavily coded. Not to mention my GF who keeps me grounded and sane (well, she tries :p).

Climbing has been crazy fun. I think we're getting better! Haha. Mary, I wanna be able to dyno by like.. early next year! Haha. The Girl, Mary and I climbed with Diann, Charlene and Amanda the other day! And they Rockbanded at my place with Bird in the evening. More about that some other time.

For now, busy with school. And I think I'm falling sick. I think people underestimate the difficulty the rest of us had to face last Tuesday and I realize that put me totally off sync and to compensate for my lack of concentration, I agreed to do ten million things for projects and I think even Sarah was worried when she was writing her lists. Haha.

Well, I wanna hit the hay. Sleep hasn't been coming easy these few nights. Thank you to everyone who has helped me get by in one way or another. Take a deep breath and hold on tight everyone, all this will pass before you know it (:
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#157 We're playing songs from different times [Nov. 25th, 2009|09:59 pm]
Livejournal has been unkind, as have other things; but it's okay. With this post, at the very least, I will persevere; with the post. Life is still gross because throwing up has notttttt stopped.

Stuff's happened and it hasn't been easy on any of us. I'm not accustomed to being a quitter, but I don't see this as quitting. I call it backing down because I'm sick of your two-faced drama that I will always be the bad guy in, someway or another. I'm tired, and I still need to face you. I'm so sick of this. I haven't cried so much over something so pointless in my life. The moment I saw that look, I knew how it was going to turn out. I'm tired of it, it may seem like there hasn't been much to deal with; but you'd really be surprised.

I can't say that everything has been bad. The weekend was an awesome one. Friday I climbed with Clarissa, Mary, Fel and Yuesheng. We learned lead roping which was tiring, but good. Did some climbing, some bouldering, then headed back to the business block for TVSM test. Camera scripting for one/two mins of PCK was tiring, I don't know how people can do it for a living. POPEYES with the Girl after, and it was so totally worth it.

Saturday morning I woke early to pick the Girl up, and also some of her teammates. Drove them all to Yio Chu Kang stadium where they met the SP Angels. They participated in the M1 tournament and came out 1st and 2nd (: I got badly sunburnt, took so many photos and filled so many bottles; I was exhausted by the end of the 5-6hours. Had lunch at Ang Mo Kio Hub macs, everyone went to different places so it was Clarissa, Mary and I at macs. Then Mary, Carol, Clarissa and I went to Starbucks at Compasspoint? Haha. Yeah. Sent them all home then came back to change and go out for dinner. I was falling asleep at the dinner table, man.


Congrats, SP Angels (:


Sunday was out for awhile. Met up with Mary to get her rockclimbing shoes! MadRock (: It was quite funny spending so long in the store trying to squish her feet into shoes, hee. Checked NUM out, got icecream and talked a little. Then I drove her back and we wound up having prata at her place and talking moree.

Monday school was a torture, 'cos it's always boring as hell. Lessons were quite boring as always, and thanks to the help of our classmates, Clarissa and I managed to escape the second half of Finance. I swear, I was going nuts in that room and there wasn't really anything we were doing. We went to meet Mary at Starbucks and hung out for just a little while before going home.

Tuesday was pretty much the same all day through. Hung with the Girl and her teammates till they went off to Ngee Ann for friendly. I met the comperes and yupp, had meeting.
Met the touchruggers 'cos I just really had to leave, and needed pass Clarissa her laptop. Grabbed a bite with them at macs then came back home.

Today was not that bad a day. Wednesdays are always quite easygoing, events then lunch and Gems. The Girl and I hit town for me to do my mopey popcorn eating then we hung out for a bit before taking the bus back to her place. It was a change since we usually take the train. Journey was slightly longer but at least we were comfortably seated and the Girl could rest on my shoulder and sleep. It was all good. Headed home after sending her back.

Climbing tomorrow. And Friday. Awesome, much? Okay. Gonna head off. School's a pain, can't wait for the holidays.

Fear consumes a person. Really. It can swallow you whole.
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#156 And I'm over getting older! [Nov. 20th, 2009|12:23 am]
[Current Music |Goo Goo Dolls - Let Love In]

Ten months, B (: Time passes SOOOOOOO fast (: ily! *insert cheesy hearts and stuff*

So I'm 21! Whoa, hello adulthood. Can't say it feels any different, 'cos it really doesn't. It was an awesome weekend though. With friends, family and all (: And this year was the first time I actually REALLLLLY celebrated my birthday with my special someone and all my friends (:

After the festivities over the weekend, normalcy fell upon life once again. Back to school and sleeping in class. Dix, Melly and Val will be happy to know that their present has been in my life EVERYDAY since Monday because my hair has been TERRIBLE. So thanks to the three of you for a beanie that finally doesn't make me look ill (:

Anyway. I've been losing weight and I didn't even realize it till recently. I really feel quite gross about what's happening but I'm sure it's nothing. It'll stop before long, I'm sure. It'd be alot scarier if I didn't have her and my friends to talk to about. So thank you everybodyyy.

So about that birthday.... Click the cut!

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Anytheway, this week has been full of ups and downs. Happyhappy and emonemo. But it's all good because of the people I've got around me. Tuesday evening was especially upsetting but I'm grateful for the main comm, and not to mention the girl and her teammates (:

I've reached this point in life where I know I should care less about some things, but I can't. You know how sometimes it's so hard to let go and like you know, get your hands off some situations. But it's so hard. Trying hard to hold onto what's left and not let it crumble, but I think we're all losing it somewhere. And it only kills the passion more and more each time another bit of it chips off. Life's too short, I wish you'd all see that.

And you know, these days I'm really beginning to realize I actually really don't like you. Like ohmygee, get a grip already and please just stop your nonsense. It takes someone who's cunning to pretend to be the good guy, but it takes a real villain to be able to play the VICTIM. I forgave, but I will never forget, and you seem bent on keeping the memory alive.

Anyway, now that I'm nice and old (all the adulthood cracks have been coming up, you've no idea the amount of things we find to blame on the fact that I'm 21); I've told myself that I'm really gonna try to control my temper. And today I really had to try very hard. But all's good! Yes, Sam is getting mature.. kinda.

Mary has got me on the idea of writing a bucket list, good plan, I say. Thanks Mary! Haha. Turns out ScaryMary isn't so scary after all :p

Okay okay, I am random to the point of no return. STOPPING! Lunch and climbingggg tmr! Eggcited! Ayy Mary, maybe we should eat eggs tomorrow. HAHAHAHAA.
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#155 No Scrubs [Nov. 5th, 2009|08:07 pm]
I'm feeling quite emo today, I think it's because I've been sick and lying in bed for too long. Also, I think all my drowsy medication has made me slightly delirious.

Today, I realized how afraid of the future I am. Like when all the fun and laughter dies off, what's left of my life? Will I get a good job with mediocre grades? Probably not. Who or what will be left beyond the hustle and bustle of life, because it's not like we all don't know it: people come and go. Will I earn enough to support my parents and a family? Will I even have a family? Will I move away to get married, or will I stay in Singapore and await the (im)possibility of gay/lesbian marriages being legalized?

Maybe moving to the States when I was 16 would have been a better option for me. But if I had, chances of me meeting Her and all my friends would be zilch. Sure there would have been others, but what would it be like compared to the people I know here? I guess we always wonder about the grass on the other side, huh? It may not necessarily be better or even seem better, but it never hurts to wonder.

These days, with my 21st nearing, my parents keep telling me to grow up. It's quite painful to hear because they've no idea how many things I've gone through and kept from them to spare them the suffering of having to deal with it. Sometimes I really wish I'd told them instead of dealing with it myself and letting it all eat at me the way it has. All the skeletons in the closet and all the demons on the inside.

Maybe in a financial, make-a-life-for-myself way, I'm not up to par; but in other ways I am. And I hate it when people act like I don't worry or even think about the future. Of course I do. I don't like living everyday as it comes, as fun as it seems.

I wish I felt a bit more secure about my life. I wish I had a reason to be more secure.
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#154 'cos we sleep all day [Nov. 4th, 2009|09:27 pm]
I am sick and I am grouchy about it. Because I don't know HOW I got sick, and now is a HORRIBLE time to be sick. Not that there's ever a GOOD time to be sick but now is HORRIBLE, because we have a formal presentation NEXT WEEK.

The doctor gave me 3 days MC and I also have $40 worth of medication! 4 or 5 different types! That's HORRIBLE. and you know what's worse? I think they REDEVELOPED cough mixture so now it's MENTHOL TASTING too! How unkind of them.

I'm grouchy, medication is getting soaked up by my blood stream and I'm extremely needy + whiney + everythingunpleasant right now.

WOE IS ME, THE WHINER!
I HATE BEING SICK.

AND THERE'S A STORM COMING ON TONIGHT, AND WE ALL KNOW I HATE STORMS BECAUSE OF ALL THAT SHIT!

WOEEEEE.
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#153 Run this town [Nov. 3rd, 2009|01:08 am]
[Current Music |Alyssa Bernal - Down (Cover)]

There's a certain price to pay for letting go, to starting a fresh.

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Thursday was a better day.

Friday was absolutely awesome climbing with the Girl and Mary. Not to mention SPARC-Compere Halloween Party '09 and B crashing (:

Saturday and Sunday were dedicated to climbing and I have to say it was fantastic.

Climbing is one of those things I never wanna stop doing. And since the Prof. seems bent on postponing when he's gonna see the horrible state of my knees, I'm determined to go on as if I have NO KNEE PROBLEM. That'll show you, pushing my appointment by ANOTHER TWO MONTHS. That makes FIVE MONTHS, dude. You're supposed to be seeing me every month.

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Trying to get my voice back, now. Not doing a good job of it, trust me.
Sigh.
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#152 Head over feet [Oct. 28th, 2009|11:48 pm]
[Current Music |Anberlin - Love Song]

Yesterday wasn't great but here's to hoping that tomorrow will be better.

Lizard is a loser.

Today, I was having a mega bad hair day - worst in the past ten years of my life, I think. Honestly. Cottonball head. I was un-remorsefully over half an hour late for Ms. Lum's class today and flashed everyone the evil eye for the first five minutes I was in the classroom. Hoho.

Then I crapped through tutorial and slept through lecture. Clarissa went for lunchshow with me because my mentee, MADDDDD, was hosting. And it's also that girl's birthday so HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAD :D Lunchshow was pretty good, Liz's hauntingly awesome rendition of Creep and Jon's closed-eyes-but-still-awesome You and I Both (:

Critiqued scripts throughout Customer Service today and had my KFC, hoho. I think KFC stands for KeepFat-Chicken. ANYWAY. The Girl and I hung out till four thirty and that's when we caught the bus to NYP 'cos she was running some 4.6km road race, so I went to support her, Amanda, Diann and Mary (: I was super stoned with my super ugly hair until seven thirty pm, when they started. I am STUNNED that she finished that quickly without training at all, CRAZY WOMAN. But I'm prouda her, MY CRAZY WOMAN. Hee.

While she was running, the other touch ruggers Tiffany and Bird were teaching me how to WORxXx and all HAHA. It was quite amusing and made time pass alot faster. Tiffany and I got saboed into the photo but we very sneakily escaped it. Hoho. Left with all of them and laughed like a psychopath, seriously. Took train with them till Raffles Place and they waited for my train with me (: Then the Girl went off with them.

Anyway, NUH has just pissed me off with a stupid letter they sent me. AHHHHHHHHHH.

I'm just glad that I have you; you always make me feel better. Even if it's just a littleeee better.
Congrats again, B. You were absolutely awesome :D



You love me, and I won't let you fall, Girl.



I cried when I watched this, hee.
So freakin' sweet, watch it till the end!
Jim & Pam <3
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#151 Big plans are coming undone [Oct. 27th, 2009|10:50 pm]
I thought this was going somewhere, but I guess I'm just not doing it right.

I know it's not all on me, but somehow, alot of it is, isn't it?
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#150 Losing it all on these sick little games [Oct. 26th, 2009|08:41 am]
[Current Music |All Time Low - Stella]

First and foremost I have to proudly proclaim that I DID MY FINANCE TUTORIAL! Hoho, new and improved Sam Koh.

How the hell did the weekend go by so fast ): I think it's because I was running around on Saturday and so today I was tired and most of my day went to sleeping or lazing around.

I'm currently in school with an hour to spare (and this is after I killed half an hour already, as it is) because I had to come in early to return the climbing equipment. Imagine my surprise when I opened the door the the SAA clubrooms to find YS in the SPARC room. Forgot to bring the belaying device which means I need to come back tomorrow morning....... LAZY ):

Looks like the Compere Room could use some cleaning up |: I shall spare us all the visuals. I think I'm in the cleanest 1/10 of the room: CRUMPLER BEANBAAAAG. Although I did have to patch another hole |: And I'm kinda thinking of all the sick people who have laid their tired heads here.... Okay, cleanest 1/10 of the room, at least to the naked eye.

So anyway, like I said, Friday was an awesome day for climbing.


HEEE <3


I think this photo's quite cool!


See my preeeetty face?
Okay no, I just realized my eyes have issues ):


I'm too lazy to post anything else but really, it was so awesome and I'm even considering whether awesome is an understatement. I've reached the point where I can just pull up on the wall, without using my legs at all :D Looks like all the working out is working! :D I sent the Girl home that night (:

And Saturday, I woke early to be at Hong Lim Park at 0740hrs ): It was horrendously early but the moment I got outta the car, I saw NIELS (: Sight for sore eyes, hoho. He hugged me and thanked me profusely for waking up early to come. So anyway, met more ECO people and snapped random shots. Then Niels told me what I was reallyyy there for:


Check out our ride :D
This thing goes up 10 stories!
We had to be harnessed and all.


We went up to take this!
I don't think it looks like it but there're supposed to be 300 people in this formation
Aim to get carbon levels below 350, people!


Haha, Niels coordinating with Chris who was at ground level.


Filming for ECOtv (:


Cool shit!


WAIKIT'S SEXY FACEEEE.


We rushed over to the hotel room they had to upload photos for the media press release, then I headed home while they all went to office. Slept for an hour before going for lunch with the family at District 10. Then I took the car and went to fetch the Girl and we went to LASALLE for part two of 350, after we ate at 15 Minutes cafe (:


ECOtv (:


Human wave peopleee.


This is Niels attempting to "raise the roof", if you can see.
It was quite funny to watch, haha.
And Damian was doing "the running man". HAHAHA.


After that, Clarissa and I sat around 15 minutes cafe while Chris used my Mac, we were there for quite a while. Then we hit town (: Was at Ion for a while (speedwalking + windowshopping) then we caught My Sister's Keeper (: Hit wheelock then I sent her home (: And I died at like eleven plus that night.

<3 thanks for the patience, and following me for event and all (:

Slept for almost 12 hours 'cos my fingers were still kinda achy from climbing. Went to get my haircut, came home to skype with the Sister, Spider-man and foster grandparents! :D I don't think I'm getting through this birthday without some sorta celebration, everyone's bent on that :| late lunch then I fell asleep on the couch HAHA. Shit man, Sleepy Sam. Better than insomnia, any day.

Headed to town at about four plus and got new headphones :D


Say hello to my sexy new Sennheisers!
Sam Koh likes this.
HAHAHA.
But seriously, the bass on these are amazing.


They were $159.90 and I misread the price as $159.00. I only had $158 in cash. So I had to Nets $1.00 HAHAHA. So embarrassing. Then the person helping me asked me what about the 90cents and I started swearing like a sailor, thinking I'd have to go back to my car. But the girl just looked at my bill, looked at me, smiled and told me it's okayyy. Haha. People these days are VERY nice. So I saved 90cents.

Went to Claymore to visit my uncle and thank him for being the second proposer for my Tanglin membership. I don't know what year I'll finally be a member because even my Brother has been waiting to be elected for the past 5 years |:

Okay, that's it, cannot take it. I'm gonna sleep for 15mins then pack up and head for Dover to meet my Girl and speed walk to class with her HAHA :D
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#149 Godspeed [Oct. 24th, 2009|12:46 am]
Today was quite an awesome dayyy! Not to mention the fact that groupings are settled and week one is over! HEEE.

So I started with TVSM and after the first lesson we're all quite worried, I'd say. Clarissa Tan had a visit to some design company, and she was late for lecture with the DI people from our class. Lecture was okay and my face brightened up like a lil kid's when the Girl came :D

Was with the Girl and Sarah at FC5 while they had lunch. Then we went over to the wall (: Climbed with YS, belayed for him, and Clarissa had to cut her nails. Jazreel came and we all climbed and belayed till like five thirty. Hoho. I'm so damn happy with the progress I've made :D I can climb the 3 colored routes on the first wall, and the second wall isn't that much of a challenge anymore. My muscles were sore after all the climbing but after a shower I feel better, just that I think I sprained a few fingers and I've got rope burn from all the belaying. But all's good. Climbing is awesome and I had tons of fun with Clarissa, YS and Jazreel (: And we'll climb more when Mary gets back (:

I also got super tempted by Jolyn's skateboarddddddddd ): Seven years it's been! ):

Anywayy, the Girl stayed with me through my comperes committee meeting, and we left at almost eight. Chris and Niels called to ask me to be a photographer for them tomorrow morning as well ): Seven thirty am at Speaker's corner. Then I'll come home to have lunch with my parents then event at LASALLE. Plus I'm meeting the Girl. Anyway, I took the train to Pasir Ris with Clarissa and Jas (: Jas got off at Bedok, but I was asleep HAHA. We went to Superdog and had chili cheese fries, and I got tape for my fingers. It was supposed to be $2.50 but because I couldn't find my 50cent coin, the person behind the counter sold it to me for $2 which was kinda weird, because I'd put aside my $2 to pay her with a $5, but she insisted on letting me pay $2 only. So odd.

Bused home with the Girl and I have to say, I've never been so happy to hold anyone's hand. HAHA. After that I came home and did weights.

So anyway, tomorrow, early ): What am I still doing up? I got hungry and just finished a plate of steamed asparagus and drank four glasses of water. Now I'm kinda awake ): Sigh.

Girl's running for Nike Human Race with the touch ruggers, so I hope they all have fun (:

Okay I should get off and do more weights.
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#148 My dreams came true because of you [Oct. 22nd, 2009|09:15 pm]
[Current Music |Shania Twain - From This Moment]

Patience and tolerance are a virtue that'll do us all good. In my case, TOLERANCE TOLERANCE TOLERANCE. But as long as it's for you, I think all kinds of tolerance are possible. If I still had the temper I used to have, I'd have thrown something at them. I'm just not gonna let things like that bother me anymore, I'm gonna try. It's been 9 months now, and such juvenility, on other people's part, is getting old.

I hearts you, b. Very much :D

So Baby, don't worry, you are my only
You won't be lonely, even if the sky is falling down
<3

Ohoh, everyone meet EGGY and PANCAKE who only exist as two beings because my Girlfriend didn't draw them the same shape :p I think my face looks like a bao in this photo and it cracks me up. I have a baoface. So that makes this a photo of EGGY, PANCAKE and BAO. Haha, shit I'm so lame.


HAHAHA.


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I feel like skateboarding ): By right, all I need are new trucks for my old board............ Oh, and cartilage in both my knees! How would I ever land any stunts when my knees would probably snap on impact? I miss my BMXing and aggressive inlining too ): neh neh.

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I think I'm just blogging while I still can, because I know at some point all these daily nonsensical posts will stop. Meaning, once projects come in I won't be able to do this all the time.

I made it on time for Media Law today and it really wasn't that bad. Charmaine had to tell Ms. Chong about me and she said I like to write. When Ms. Chong asked what I write, I was so afraid Charmaine was gonna say, "Nonsense." HAHAHA. I mean look at the state of my blog, I miss writing substantial things. Maybe I should get back to writing that lovey dovey stuff I was writing, huh.

Anyhowww, I spoke up in class today! HAHA. In a non-mediaish module! And it wasn't really nonsense, I hope. HAHA. We had a mini debate and I wound up sounding super bitchy because I was hungry. Hoho. Lecture was alright, kinda. It was also kinda funny because I was irritating the crap outta Sarah. Really, YOU SHOULDA SEEN HER FACE. HAHAHA. Anyway, take care, Char! You know who to call if you need! :D

Clarissa, Sarah and I headed back to business block and hung with Ms. Kwa and Ms. Nga for awhile. I've missed themmmm! Then Clarissa went for her DI and I walked with Sarah to the MRT station. Went to Macs at the other end of school to meet Puay 'cos she was helping me submit my indemnity form for Climb On ((: I also talked to Ms. Eve for a good 15mins ((: AHH I've missed my lecturers!!!

I studied while waiting for Clarissa to finish DI. This's the first lesson we're having apart since we got together HAHAHA. I think it's quite funny. It felt weird not to be in her class for something. I mean for the past semester we've been through every module together HAHA. SOOOOO, I covered everything that Ms. Chong's been teaching for Media Law so I'll be able to follow during lecture. Will study finance this weekend. I really don't know what to say if my grades still come out like trash.

Then JAS cameeeee! :D I swear I'm just glad to be back in school because of all the people. Met Clarissa after and I swear I'm so glad I didn't choose to do Design for my elective. I woulda died because as we all know, I CANNOT draw and they spent don't know how long sketching/drawing/whatever it was. We met up with Claire and walked to FC5 area and hung around. Then I helped them carry the rugby balls to the field and just hung out there before coming home.

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Two halloween parties to attend. HAHAHA.

Oh oh, I think my parents are concerned that I have absolutely no plans for my 21st. Like, I think they think I've got no friends to celebrate with or something |: I think I'm just too lazy? And I really don't think it's my thing to get pissed drunk and all. We all know alcohol isn't my thing.

I don't know, I'm getting tired just thinking about turning 21, because the week of my birthday we have presentations and the week after we have written tests. So turning 21 basically means getting caught up in school. Not cool.

Climbing tomorrow! Eggcited, :D I'm going to do my weights now. Apparently I need to do weights to toughen my finger muscles too. Let's just try not to break anything! HAHA.
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#147 When the world comes crashing down [Oct. 22nd, 2009|12:41 am]
[Current Music |Cartel - Typical]

Bruised ribs and calf, aching kneeees. But climbing's still awesome (:

I am retarded. That's all I can say. Haha.

Last night, I was annoyed and agitated. The Girl was tired after training but still came on to talk to me because I was experiencing anger management issues and was close to breaking things again. I didn't sleep till two plus and when I did I was drifting in and outta sleep with a barely functioning mind. This morning was hilarious though. My alarm came on and I switched it off. My Mum came in to wake me, and I said I was getting up soon. The Girl called to say she just left her house, I said I was getting up soon. Then she texted to say she was on the train, I said I'd get up soon, and she said no, I had get up that instant. She texted a lil while later and she asked if I was up, I replied, "Getting there."'cos at that very moment, the upper half of my torso was hanging over the ledge of my bed. Lazy ass, and in this case, I REALLY mean LAZY ASS, because from there down I was still on the bed, hoho.

I actually made it on time for Ms. Lum's class! HOHOHO. 8am, yo! Made it at 0759 - one wonderful minute to spare (: No one'll say it, but I will... I'M PROUDA YOU, SAM! Hee. Okay, so anyway. Lum's lesson was AWESOME. Am loving Events already! :D Today I got to be a CEO, HAHAHA. Aaaaand, I got to make up a crappy R21ed version of Cinderella and Joel got to add on to it :D We is the coolest.


Mine:
So, Cinderella like, so totally slept with the Prince! And that biatch left her gstring behind! So, the Prince used the underwear she left behind as a reason to sleep with every single girl in the town to find the owner! But none of them fit! (interpret this however you want, but I meant the gstring!) turns out that Cinderella was just a slutty tourist who came for the ball!

Joel's addition:
So after he slept with them all, he found out the truth about Cinderella: She had aids! So all the women in the town got aids and they all became his concubines. The end.


Sigh, scandalous Cinderella with your naughty lil gstring. Try thinking that stuff up in 30 seconds, man. NOT EASY!

Ms. Lum's LECTURE after, and that was okay (: Lunch with classmates then we had Customer Service GEMs. So our corner of the class comprised of the Girl and I, Joel, Kenneth, Kim and Amanda. HAHAHA. It was quite funny. And we had some DMC juniors there with us too. We had to play that game where we go around and collect everyone's name and all. My 02 classmates accused me of cheating 'cos I finished FIRST. OH WELL, SLOW POKES! \m/

GEMs finished almost an hour early so I went to check Comperes mailbox and all. Hung with the Girl for a lil bit before walking her to the Dover 'cos she was meeting her Mum for dental. Walked back to club with Selene and we made halloween decorations. Okay, THEY made, I played. I'm really bad at these things. Met Mary outside the sports hall and because YS went MIA on us for quite a while, we had like an hour to talk. HAHA. It was quite funny, but I'm so sorry for making her wait! And I'm so sorry for bombarding YS with calls! ANYWAY, we made our way to the bouldering wall, but the climbers were too pro for us to dare to try. In the end, we climbed the high wall instead, at five plus. Totally worth the wait (: Climbed the green route then blue! :D I'm starting to get a bit of technique in, and while it's torture for the knees, but I'm not backing down this time :D We went back and bouldered a bit too.

By the time we stopped, it was about 2130hrs. Damn man, I shoulda brought DSLR today. Sigh. But anyway, there'll be many more climbing sessions and I can't wait! Friday high wall, and Puay asked if I wanna join her and Brian at SAFRA Yishun early Sat morning, which I will consider, seeing how I have an event in the afternoon. Climbing is really super satisfying. Although bouldering made me feel quite lousy, though. Mr. Jacob said it's just that the handholds are quite tough to grab.

Thanks to YS and Mary for the awesome time todayy (: It's just past midnight and I'm having dinner now. I was thinking of skipping out just now but decided against it because I thought of my TPJC underweight days. 34kg, yo! Let's never go back there again, yes?

Two and a Half Men is hilarious. I seriously know why my sense of humor is so slapstick and lame.

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I think I care too much.
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(no subject) [Oct. 20th, 2009|11:46 pm]
DUDE, OMG WTF REALLY.

“Sometimes people write some things they can’t say." - Haley James Scott

RIGHT NOW, I DON'T EVEN HAVE ANYTHING TO WRITE ABOUT IT.

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#146 Nowhere to go on a one track mind [Oct. 20th, 2009|11:30 pm]
[Current Music |Cartel - The Perfect Mistake]

You know, I guess even if it's a small thing, it still stings. Disappointment never gets easier to deal with, and that just agitates me. You'd think after all the big failures in my life, a tiny bit of rejection wouldn't cause a dent - but I guess it does.

The worst part is that it makes you doubt your abilities. And I guess I just learned that even something so small could hurt this much. It's times like these I wish I could be one of those people who can just shrug it off and take another whack at things, but this's gonna set me back just a little. I've never been much of a go-getter, have I?

I think I'm really a miserable mass of pathetic when it comes to failure. A blubbering, miserable, mass of pathetic.

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Lizard - I'm a sheep (Busy)

I seriously laughed like a maniac at this because it just seems so... off. And thinking about what brought on this MSN display name... HAHA. But then again, at 3am in the morning, everything's funny.

She and I were on the phone for a whoppin' 3 hours. 3 HOURS, LIZARD. Only because it's your birthday and you're retarded, okay?

Although I think I need to think about how much she actually appreciates my time and attention because on her blog, I found this:
  1. Sam dropped by. It was really good seeing her again. We must meet for lunch soon! Anyhow, Sam left for the supermarket to get some baking stuff (epic gay) while I sent her to work.
  2. It's 2:21am and I'm not done with my essay. Still stuck at the third paragraph. I can't believe I'm spending the first few hours of my 20th with Sam on the phone, epic gay X2.
IN MY DEFENSE, the baking stuff was for the GF's anniversary cookies that were very painstakingly planned from scratch! But anyway, altogether that makes 3 times worth of EPIC GAYNESS Lizard has accused me of. Asswipe, to think I'm looking out for you like this. I JUST DON'T WANNA SEE YOU DO SOMETHING STUPID, and don't ask me what I mean by do; there's no pun or double meaning!

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I woke up late for school today. Not late-late, just later than I intended to; because I didn't set my alarm after talking to that pain-in-the-peehole. So I rushed to get ready and left for school. Made it in time for Finance lecture, and in my opinion I shoulda just stayed home and slept another hour. I don't know how I'm gonna make it through another semester of business modules, I'm pretty sure I'm running outta luck. I bet I made it through Consumer Behavior by the skin of my teeth. Lunch was emotionally relieving thanks to Clarissa, Sarah and Charmaine. Then back to Advertising and Media Law lectures.

Today I learned that sitting in lecture, squeezing your eye shut and muttering, "don'tcallmedon'tcallmedon'tcallme" doesn't work. Somehow the Universe decided to lead the lecturer's eyes to my name on the register. And then dear 02 laughed so hard at me that I didn't hear the question and had to ask her to repeat. Then I didn't know which of the six points was the right answer. Sigh. Looks like I chalked up another point in the bad impression department :| Advertising with (let's call him) Mr. D (because it's shorter and easier HAHA) was okay. Quite funny.

Talking to Lizard reduces me to a dirty mind and the F-word as my punctuation. F-this, F-that. Sigh. Just when I got my vulgarities under control. I'm not a bad person, I'm not rude; I just have tattoos, a dirty mind and poor control of my vulgarities. Daniel called me an AhBeng yesterday, shame on him.

Anytheway, in an attempt to get the whole class to participate, I may have just sabotaged myself into running for Sports Day; ack. Walked the Girl to training and talked to people there. Haha. I think people think I'm full of nonsense, which I guess most of the time I am. Dinner with parents and the ex-neighbor who's visiting from France. She and her family are coming back again next year to visit and the kids have now grown so much, they're definitely taller than I am. To think they weren't that tall when we were tossing the frisbee around the garden a few years back.

I forgot to bring my pills to dinner tonight but it was nice to enjoy a full meal without that nauseating feeling in my throat and stomach.

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I don't feel better yet, but I probably will soon. Climbing tomorrow, I can't wait! My inner monkey is bouncing of the walls of my insides!

P/S Cartel's new album Cycles is the shizz, hohoho. Thanks Andrea! If not for her, I wouldn't know about all this stuff.
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#145 And when they set me free, just put your hands on me [Oct. 19th, 2009|06:40 pm]
[Current Music |Jesse McCartney - Right Where You Want Me]



So once again, today marks 9 months that we've been together, and I really couldn't be happier (: ily, B! :D I spent about 4hours slogging in the kitchen last night, experimenting, writing and rewriting the recipe for those cookies. It's been quite a while since I wrote a recipe from scratch and I'm quite happy with how these turned out (: And I'm overjoyed that they're for you! <3

Light, not too sweet... Absolutely nothing like me, the heavy and excessively sweet one HOHOHO. Okay, stop it. I don't even know why I laugh like that now.

I'm extremely jealous 'cos SOMEONE has a new laptop! 13'' MacBookPro! But at least I'll be able to play with ittttttt. And now my SexyMac (I still think the pun on SexyBack is funny, thanks to my terrible sense of humor), has a girlfriend too :D

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I think my sense of humor is completely whack.

Sarah: Dude, I'm gay for Obama.
Me: Really? 'Cos I'm just gay!

And I swear, I laughed for like a full 30mins when our lecturer came into a purple room with purple hair and a purple hairband. Not to mention Sarah and Charmaine sitting in fronta me, also in purple. It was absolutely hilarious. I can't breathe! Too...Much...PURPLE! God, I swear I don't know why I was so badly affected by it.

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We talked about Ris Low in class today. And while I find her quite funny, I think tearing her life apart (ie bipolar stuff) is quite mean. I'm fully content with her BOOMZ and LEOPARD PRINGGGS and IS ALRIGHT. But other than that, let's let her live her life ayy. But really, that RazorTV video must be as viral as H1N1 by now.

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Anywayyy. So, besides the fact that today was yet another milestone crossed for you and I, the day itself wasn't all that great.

At 2am, before I slept, I found out that someone who used to care for me once in awhile passed on. It didn't quite hit me at first until I realized the little things that would be different. Her presence in my life wasn't that large, but her death still affected me. She feels like a distant relative of mine, but still family.

This morning,I rushed to get ready for school and on the way, I got word that a friend's father had also passed on.

All I can say is may they rest in peace; my heart really goes out to their families and loved ones.

It seems like death and illness is looming all around; recently two of my relatives also fell ill enough to wind up in ICU and it's kinda scary. I think it's really putting life into perspective for me, as I begin to realize that no one around me is getting any younger. Also, death swoops so suddenly that age or health doesn't seem to matter anymore.

I'm not afraid of dying, I never have been. But I fear losing the people around me. I know it's selfish and really childish. But I'm like that, aren't I? My mindset and mentality have always been oxymoronically linked, in the sense that maturity makes me realize certain things, but childishness leaves me in self-denial. I don't believe I'm the only one who lives my life that way, but I believe that I'm probably one of the worst cases of this sorta irrationality.

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Today, our class also had our semestral dispute over groupings. Like I said, at least once a semester (and maybe more times for some), everyone hates me for bringing up the issue. But this time, I wasn't the one who lost my temper; which means my phone is still intact. Hoho, I think that's ALL everyone remembers about grouping disputes: (1) me throwing and smashing my phone (2) me grabbing Daniel by the neck and almost punching him in the face (3) me banning everyone from going for Econs lecture. HAHAHA. I just really hope that everyone's more or less alright. I wish we were still the old 02 we used to be, but I guess that ship has sailed, huh?

I am thankful for having her with me though. And not to mention my friends. And even though we aren't all that close anymore, I think we're all still the same people we were when we first came to this class, and I'm thankful that everyone's still patient with my crap and everyone still jokes around.

I'm just so glad the first day is over, and everyone's adjourned to go home and lick their wounds. School's so mentally draining. OH, AND PHYSICALLY DRAINING TOO! I was telling my Mum that the timetabling committee was having fun with our timetable. We'll be strutting around from LT17B to Business block quite a number or times, I think? My poor aching knees ): I know I'm sucha whiner, but I'm convinced the condition's getting worse in there.

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Okay, I am going to play Wii, before work starts piling. But I pledge to start studying sometime this week, because I want to pull up my GPA. I like to think I'm underachieving; I don't wanna face the fact that perhaps this's the best I can do.

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I WANNA by ALL AMERICAN REJECTS is super addictive. But the Girl thinks it's quite stupid, I think.
I WANNA I WANNA I WANNA TOUCH YOU, YOU WANNA TOUCH ME TOOOOOOO; cool what. Sam Koh likes this.

OHMYGOD, SAM. SHUT UP AND STOP IT.
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#144 You're all the girl that I ever need [Oct. 18th, 2009|10:13 pm]
19th October; happy ninth month! :D :D :D
So damn awesome! :D Wait till you see what I've got for youuuu HAHA <3
School starts tomorrow but I'm not that bummed because I'm so damn lucky that you're in my class ((:
HEEHEE HOHO HAHA :D



"I love you and that's all I really know."
<3


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Today, I realized I'm tired of being the joker. I don't think anyone'd believe me if I said I'm more serious than I seem.

I slept in all day and after I woke up for an approximately 4pm lunch, I got a text from Lizard who said she was in Holland V. After struggling through my lazy thoughts (ie visions of myself lying in bed watching episodes of Two and a Half Men or playing Wii), I decided to head down to meet her for an hour or so. Nice to know that I had to think about it first before heading down to meet a friend I haven't seen for almost a year. The last time I saw her was when she and Tanny raided my place for a school night of massive Rockbanding, or rather Lizard howling the song Creep, over and over. Back when I was single, and still in year one.

So I met up with her and her friend, Eunice. Like I've said before, I love my friends, but there's something about being around people my age outside of school, haha. It's like.. Revertigo, or something. There was usual talk of school, friends, what we've been up to, and of course the Girlfriend. Though this was the first time I met Eunice, she knows who my girlfriend because of common sport/cca. Anyway, talking to them set me thinking. I was wondering why in the world I'd never sunk into that stage that most of my other friends did; clubbing, drinking, etc. I mean, all I did was smoke, and drank a little. But all that was on my own, not with friends, not at clubs or pubs; and it was all to forget or escape reality, none of it for fun or enjoyment.

Anyway, all the talk was good. It was funny, as always, because Lizard is a big load of dung HAHA. Okay, no. She's just funny, and exceptionally fun to make fun of. Hanging with her always feels the same as what it felt like when we were in JC2, and I don't think I ever tire of her company hahaha. She may be an asshole sometimes, but the tolerable kind; HAHA.

None of us have changed that much, have we?
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#143 You've got me right where you want me [Oct. 17th, 2009|12:05 am]
[Current Music |Justin Bieber - One Less Lonely Girl]

The past few days've been pretty good. Even though I've been unfortunate enough to be at the wrong place, at the wrong time; it's all okay! I'm even dealing with the weather causing my knees to ache.

Two years ago, this day was the worst day of my life. I thought it'd be tough to get through like it was last year, but somehow, it's really not as bad as I thought it'd be. It still gets to me, but because of the person I have to make me feel better. We don't talk about things in detail, but we talk, and it isn't so bad anymore.

I also realized that it's been a year since I fell outta something that was quite big in my life! Haha, after all the time, and suffering on both sides; it all finally ended. HAHAHA. It's really funny to look back on and sometimes I can't help but wonder why in Heaven's name it went on that long. But I'm glad that we got outta it (no matter how drastic the actions taken), took months apart and we're friends now.


I'll take her and leave the world <3


Life is so much better right now. I bounced back from what I thought I never would, and I feel more than I ever thought I could (: So damn awesome, I swear (: You're a freakin' ray of sunshine in my otherwise dreary life, woman. HAHA. I hearts youzz. Hoho. I haven't met anyone who's as patient and tolerant of my crap and immaturity, and I honestly think that I'm ridiculously fortunate to have her (: I still remember the end of last year, when I would wait for the late hours of the night because that's when we'd talk for hours (: Hee <3

She went back to TPJC with me and I find it hilarious that once I made the decision to go back, THE SKY TURNED BLACK. And when we left, the sun came back out HAHA. We got into the same gems, hee. Also had late lunch at airport. We had icecream at Udders twice this week, also played bball :D Cooked lunch at her place and all after picking some stuff up from the supermarket. Had dinner at Din Tai Fung; XIAO LONG BAOOOOOOO :D Hehs. Not to mention sushi at Clementi with the groupmates (: Zion Road hawker center played us out, but still, Kenny Rogers wasn't bad. Hanging out at random places and window shopping is always fun, haha.

So that was our week, easygoing stuff before school starts (: While I'm dreading classes, I'm pretty psyched about getting back to climbing! :D And seeing my lecturers! And my comperes! :D Couple of weeks' time, the foster grandparents will be here! And a month after that, the Sister and Spider-man ((:

Oh, here's the indication that I'm turning (oh crap, I initially missed out the twenty) TWENTYone:


Club memberships applications, hoho.
No more household membershipppp, except for Tanglin!
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#142 One thing that keeps me alive [Oct. 12th, 2009|02:02 am]
[Current Music |Hall & Oates - You Make My Dreams]


Thanks for coming to meet me though you were tired and sunburnt, Boo (:

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Sleepless nights have been striking, once again. Let's just say that I was awake at 5am when Niels texted me to tell me he wasn't coming for today's ECOtv training. Two full 10am-6pm days of training later, and I feel more comfortable onscreen; all thanks to Edvarcl and the rest of the ECOtv team who were amazing to learn, and soon to work, with.

I know why I'm losing my sleep: it's October. Almost two freaking years it's been, but unfortunately, I still had a nightmare about it, didn't I?

I haven't gone to the gym for a proper workout lately, but I do weights every night. The Girl has been telling me to slow down because my arms getting bigger, and I've gone down one belt hole, hoho. But still, awesome way of destressing, though I miss boxing just a little bit.

I'm exhausted, and relatively grouchy about some stuff; but my Girlfriend is freakin' amazing. Seriously (: She's a never ending pillar of support, and she puts up with a load of my nonsense ranging from incomprehensible non-existent-language whining, to continuously poking her arms and tickling her.

On Friday, she came over just to hang out. And by hanging out, I mean doing nothing in particular; she played Cafe World while I played my Wii :p Then we had dinner with my Mum (: Mexican in Holland V. Saturday I was down at ECO for training.

TODAYYYY, the wonderful Girl came to Bugis to meet me while we were filming and hung out with us in office as we rewatched our footage (: Then she and I had dinner at Fisherman's Wharf. Sat and talked, laughed and everything <3



Love how the awesome person always picks awesome food :D
Amazing that I don't put on weight!


Things are bugging me lately. The past, I still can't think of it fully. The future situation that isn't that far away, a completely unrelated thing that's, unfortunately, also out of my control. But she's my present; she calms the memory of the past, and I know she'll be there in that icky future situation; thank you.

I'm gonna try to take it all in my stride. The past is still painful, and it still haunts me. But I know what's coming can be handled, even if it's tough.
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#141 There is a light that never goes out [Oct. 10th, 2009|08:30 am]
Jim:
And I had to do the hardest thing that I've thing that I've ever had to which was just to wait. Don't get me wrong, I flirted with her. Pam, I can now admit, in fronta friends and family, that I do know how to make a photocopy - didn't need your help so many times. And do you remember how long it took you to teach me to drive stick?

Pam:
Yeah, like a year!

Jim:
I've been driving stick since high school. so... yes, yes.
For a really long time, that's all I had. I just had little moments with a girl who saw me as a friend.


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OhmyG. Jim & Pam finally tie the knot :D

I took out a bit of the quote 'cos it's a bit cheesy, but the gist is right there.

Maybe I didn't wait as long as Jim (NOWHERE near as long as Jim), but ohmygoodness that's the sweetest thing I've ever come across in the show and I know what he means; about stealing little moments, and how much the wait is worth it.

I remember how I wasn't sure that this wait would go anywhere; but I tried. And I know what it means to feel the wait was worth it <3.
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